February 9, 2015

I have come by the highway home

In January I had to make two unexpected trips back to South Dakota.  My aunt passed on New Year's Day, and a short while later my dear friend Barbara's mother passed.  My husband had commitments he couldn't break so I found myself driving alone across southern Minnesota on a lonely stretch of highway for the second funeral.  Usually when I am traveling across the prairie the lyrics from Simon and Garfunkel's Look for America run through my mind...

So I looked at the scenery,
She read her magazine;
And the moon rose over an open field.
"Kathy, I'm lost", I said,
Though I know she was sleeping.
"I'm empty and aching and
I don't know why."

But this time I did know why I was empty and aching--returning home to once again say goodbye to a dear woman who lived her life gracefully and loving was hard.  Even when someone has lived a good and long life, it is still hard to say goodbye.  Watching my friend grieve the loss of her mother was difficult.  Knowing that each day I grow a step closer to being the "older generation" whose shoes will be so hard to fill, is a somber thought.

I took these photos as I traveled through Wisconsin's glaciated cliffs and coulies, across the Mississippi, and passing small towns nestled next to lonely snow drifted prairie roads, watching the sun, not the moon, rise over the open fields.


 



My travels brought to mind one of Robert Frost's poems, Reluctance, as I watched the miles speed by through the warmth of my car.  My heart agreed with his passionate resistance to not willingly go "with the drift of things".  God bless the two wonderful women we have had to say our last goodbyes to.  May the winter be over for them. 

Reluctance

Out through the fields and the woods
   And over the walls I have wended;
I have climbed the hills of view
   And looked at the world, and descended;
I have come by the highway home,
   And lo, it is ended.

The leaves are all dead on the ground,
   Save those that the oak is keeping
To ravel them one by one
   And let them go scraping and creeping
Out over the crusted snow,
   When others are sleeping.

And the dead leaves lie huddled and still,
   No longer blown hither and thither;
The last lone aster is gone;
   The flowers of the witch hazel wither;
The heart is still aching to seek,
   But the feet question ‘Whither?’

Ah, when to the heart of man
   Was it ever less than a treason
To go with the drift of things,
   To yield with a grace to reason,
And bow and accept the end
   Of a love or a season?

February 6, 2015

...and went out in the morning, and sang

I'll be the first to admit that I am a world class worrier.  I worry about everything...work, home, family, the world, my dog, my children, my mother.  You name it, I've probably spent hours fretting about it.  Last week I came across a poem of Mary Oliver's that brought me up short--and made me realize that I don't want to spend the rest of my life worrying over so many things that probably won't happen.  Or if they do happen, I will find the strength to deal with.  My mother (who also knows how to take worrying to a whole new level) used to be so irritated when my dad, in response to her voicing her concern over an issue, would shrug his shoulders and say "what good will it do ya?".  I also live with a glass half full kind of guy, so I know how she felt.  And yet, maybe if I keep this poem close to my heart there's hope for me yet.  The picture is one of my Door County photos of sunrise over Lake Michigan.  I hope it inspires you to love more, live deeper and find the joy instead of the worry in life!



Happy Friday!



February 5, 2015

Winter fell...

Looking out my kitchen window...
Yay!  Mycomputer is fixed and all my annoying pop-ups and flashing media plug-in reminders are finally gone.  It had reached the point where, although my computer has virus protection, the malware pop-ups had maliciously run amok and using my computer was an exercise in annoyance and futility.  In short, it drove me crazy...every time I tried to research something I was taken to a Russian dating site.  Sigh.  A big thank you to my son for getting to the bottom of the problem and restoring internet sanity!

So...where was the snow when I really wanted it?  Our very brown Christmas has come and gone, but now when the arrival of seed catalogs has me dreaming of spring...the snow has arrived!  Thankfully, February is a short month. Spring can't be too far away, right? (ah what lovely rose-colored glasses I am wearing!)

We recently splurged on a trip to the IMAX theater to see the last two episodes of last season's Game of Throne's (HBO) and the first preview of the upcoming season.  The next day the snow began in earnest, and I had to admit to a quiet chuckle or two as I looked out at the snow and saw the back of my Little Free Library...


Why yes, Winter fell all over our yard, driveway and street!


Winterfell, the castle and seat of the House Stark in Game of Thrones

And to round off this post, here's a poem by Wallace Stevens that seems appropriate...

The Snow Man  
One must have a mind of winter
To regard the frost and the boughs
Of the pine-trees crusted with snow;
 
And have been cold a long time
To behold the junipers shagged with ice,
The spruces rough in the distant glitter
 
Of the January sun; and not to think
Of any misery in the sound of the wind,
In the sound of a few leaves,
 
Which is the sound of the land
Full of the same wind
That is blowing in the same bare place
 
For the listener, who listens in the snow,
And, nothing himself, beholds
Nothing that is not there and the nothing that is.




January 6, 2015

In the bleak midwinter...

New Year's Day began with the sad news of my aunt's passing.  Although she had been struggling with health issues for some time, and had recently been moved to hospice care, the news was still a shock.  Aunt Carol, affectionately know as TOB (tough old bird) by those that loved her, left us with enough happy memories and funny stories to shore us up when the grief threatens to catch hold.  She had planned her funeral down to the very last details, including instructions to the pastor to start the song over if we didn't sing with enough gusto!  So sing we did, with hearts full of love even if they were breaking just a little at her absence.

Aunt Carol on the left, my mother on the right
Carol was my dad's baby sister, and after my dad's passing she was a wonderful companion for my mother---they shared a passion for playing cards and treating themselves to McDonald's ice cream sundaes!  She was a dedicated nurse, and helped deliver countless babies in eastern South Dakota for many years.  She worked the night shift and would often stop by on her way to the hospital for a little night chat with my parents.  I always stood in awe of her amazing ability to pull whatever she needed from her sturdy work brassiere...a hankie, a pack of cigarettes, car keys...you name it, and out it came from its secret hiding place!

My husband and I braved the frosty weather (and by frosty I mean unbelievably freezing cold) and made the trip back to South Dakota.  And while it was lovely to see so many relatives, it was hard to say goodbye, and also difficult to realize we are now one step closer to being the senior generation. We have very big shoes to fill.  We both realize how lucky we have been to have parents, aunts and uncles who cared--who were there for us--and lived their lives in such a way as to serve as remarkable role models for all of us who follow.

I purchased my first "smart phone" just before the new year, so I experimented with my phone's camera on our trip.  The travel from the church to the country cemetery offered some really stark South Dakota scenery, fitting, I suppose, for the sorrow of the day.


As we drove by snow covered fields the lyrics to Christina Rossetti's poem drifted through my mind:

In the bleak midwinter, frosty wind made moan,
Earth stood hard as iron, water like a stone;
Snow had fallen, snow on snow, snow on snow,
In the bleak midwinter, long ago.
Our God, Heaven cannot hold Him, nor earth sustain;
Heaven and earth shall flee away when He comes to reign.
In the bleak midwinter a stable place sufficed
The Lord God Almighty, Jesus Christ.

What can I give Him, poor as I am?
If I were a shepherd, I would bring a lamb;
If I were a Wise Man, I would do my part;
Yet what I can I give Him: give my heart.


November 18, 2014

A taste of the French Quarter...

Good morning!  A week ago we were strolling through the French Quarter and enjoying the sights, sounds and in particular the TASTE of New Orleans. This week we are back home in Wisconsin, where the sights and sounds are a little different.  Instead of blues, I have Barry Manilow playing on my kitchen CD player:


And instead of lush green balconies


this is the view from my front door:



No palm trees in Wisconsin, 

 

 only snow covered spirea...



But while I can't recreate the warmth and sunshine and joie de vivre that we so enjoyed last week, there are a few things I can attempt to re-capture.  I am, at heart, a Southern girl when it comes to my food preferences, and I was delighted to find this towel in the Quarter, which now proudly hangs on my kitchen island:


Did someone say simmerin' grits??!  


and sizzlin' bacon?!


BEST BACON EVER!!
Praline bacon (baked with a topping of brown sugar and pecans)
Recipe from a great New Orleans cookbook I found in the Quarter (more on that discovery in another post!)



So I turned a lazy (and cold) Sunday morning into my own little Cafe' du Monde and served up a little Louisiana flavor right in my own kitchen.   Besides the grits and bacon, orange juice, coffee and scrambled eggs, I tried my hand at French beignets. We sampled them last week and I brought home a mix to give them a try.  
Cafe' du Monde

Cafe' a la Scales



And here are my beignets...not a bad first attempt!  I'm really glad my husband does the dishes, though, as sputtering grease seemed to land everywhere!!


Cafe du Monde

A plate of small hot beignets
coated in a snow squall
of light powdered sugar

a dense cup of oh so hot
coffee with chicory

at 3:00am, near Jackson Square

Jazz and spice in the air
Before last call,
in the Big Easy

--Raymond Foss, 2005


Happy Tuesday!


November 13, 2014

Road trip!

Two cars, eight people, sixteen hours and two days down, and sixteen hours in ONE day coming home!  My husband and I set our new all-time record for most hours driving last weekend, but it was surely worth it!  We headed south to the Big Easy, the city of cafe au lait and beignets, crawfish and creole cuisine, gumbo and grits.  South...where the air was redolent with the smell of the mighty Mississippi mingling with fried calas (rice) cakes and roses still blooming in the French Quarter.

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We were delighted to attend our nephew's wedding and bask in the warmth of the sunshine and the happiness of being surrounded by loved ones.  As Martha Stewart would say...a wedding---it's a good thing!  We also had free time to wander the French Quarter and make new memories.  This poem by Vince Vance, penned in 2011, describes the essence of what we discovered on a lovely Sunday morning stroll through the Quarter:


I Am New Orleans 

by Vince Vance
        ...upon the 125th Anniversary of the Monteleone Hotel, the heart of New Orleans

I'm American, European and African... all by chance
I'm Satchmo, Jumbo, Fountain, Fats, 'Fess and Vince Vance
I'm the roux in your gumbo; I'm the rice in your beans
I'm a levee that will never break; I am New Orleans.


My blood is the River, my heart is the Quarter
I'm a corrupt politician; a slave that was martyred
A girl who lost her way and a Bourbon Street Queen
A Streetcar Named Desire; I am New Orleans.


I'm praying in the Cathedral; I'm living in sin
I never sleep from the bustle or the fear I live in
I smell like French Bread; my snowball's nectar cream
In a city that care forgot; I am New Orleans.


I'm stronger from lies; I'm bigger than The Dome
I'm the Saints; I'm the sinners; I am a place called Home
I'm sweating in December; I'm purple, gold and green
I'm Catholic and I'm voodoo; I am New Orleans.


I'm Dixieland Jazz; I'm Redfish Court-Bouillon
I'm the Carousel Lounge, the Knights of Babylon
"Throw me something. Mister!" Yeah, I hear y'all scream
But this parade never ends; I am New Orleans.


I'm coffee and beignets, a ferry to Old Algiers
I'm the Best Bank, Metry, St. Bernard, I drink Abita Beer
I'm a Jambalaya of People seasoned with moonbeams
I'm Mardi Gras on Canal Street; I am New Orleans.


I was sold by the French and saved by Ole Hickory
There's water all around me, but I can never come clean
I'm eight feet below sea level and I'm slipping out to sea
Katrina changed me forever, but I am still New Orleans.


They tried to call me Chocolate City; it's okay we're white and black
You can drench me with oil but I'm always coming back
I'm the healer Dr. Mary and all of Blaine Kern's dreams
I'm an old hotel called Monteleone; I am New Orleans.






November 4, 2014

I had a mother who read to me...






Oh my goodness!  I guess I am learning the hard way that a habit that bites the dust is hard to re-establish!  When I first started my blog I decided I would post every week day and take the weekends off, which worked really great for quite a while.  Then...I had a grandchild on the way (baby blankets! knitted baby hats! baby showers!) and a daughter getting married (crafts! crafts! crafts!!!!!) and I had to choose between crafting/planning/organizing/executing or blogging on a regular schedule.  But coming back from a writing hiatus right before the holidays is making it difficult to stick to a five times a week writing schedule, so for now you can plan on my posting a new blog every Tuesday, Thursday and Saturday.  Hopefully that will give me time to give you a few peeks on all the crazy, happy times I've had the last few months and still allow me to put some ho-ho-ho into my holiday preparations!  

My grandmother Beulah Badger and four of her six children.  My mother is on the right.

Up first?  A project I've been wanting to show you for a long time, but getting all the pictures took longer than expected!  A former colleague of mine gave me such an unexpected, memorable and thoughtful gift year before last...he and his father built a Little Free Library for me.  I had wanted to dedicate one to my mother for a long time, but my woodworking skills are beginner level and it was just too much of a project for me to handle.  I was so touched and grateful for this gift.  Thank you, Jeff and Russell!!  I finally got it assembled and painted and was able to present it to my mom when she was here for her birthday.


I had a hard time deciding how to finish the exterior--so many choices!  But when I came across these durable, exterior travel posters I knew I had found the perfect finishing touch, representing a few of the book series that my family loves.  First up, Narnia.  I have wonderful memories of reading this entire series to my younger siblings during a long and uncomfortably hot station wagon trek from South Dakota to Washington state.  We dreamed of the "endless winter" and Edmund's Turkish delights while we valiantly tried to keep our hot, sweaty bodies from touching each other!  Thank you, C.S. Lewis, for amazing tales of courage and faith that kept us enthralled for 1,365 miles (but who's counting?).


I smile every time I remember my family's use of six bookmarks and three copies of the same book, with six eager readers fighting over their turn to read the latest Harry Potter installment!  And the children weren't the only ones anxious to check in on Harry, Hermione, Ron and all the professors! My husband and I were just as excited to have an imaginary butterbeer at the Hog's Head Tavern!


And now that we are all "grown up" (alas) we take our fantasy in more adult fashion.  But there are still enough dragons and magic and sword craft and tales of derring-go to keep us fascinated as we traverse the Seven Kingdoms of Westeros in George R.R. Martin's Game of Thrones epic series:



A peek inside shows you today's offerings--it has become so popular that books change daily!  It warms my heart to see cars pull up to swap books, walkers slow down and browse, and kids on their way to school peek inside to see what might attract their attention:


And all due to a grandmother who could recite poetry at the drop of a hat and a mother who instilled a deep love of reading and left me with a life long love of the printed word.  As Anne (with an "e") would say, my mother and I are kindred spirits when it comes to our love of books!



So of course today there is only one poem I could possibly choose.  I love you, Mom, and thank you thank you thank you for sharing your passion for books with me!